Most of the days that Ritzy has been on this deployment, I feel just like what the title to today's entry says. I was writing him earlier and was telling him the same thing. I told him that I would have expected by now to not be taking it so hard. But, some days I just can't shake the feeling of being so "alone", even around my family and friends. I miss Ritzy and I am not ashamed of it. Part of me is gone and will be until he returns.........
I was talking to a cousin/friend who has recently had to put her husband in the nursing home. We could each understand how the other was feeling. We know that each one of us is always thinking about the other and how the separation from our loved ones hurts. It does help when you can talk to someone who is going thru a similar situation.
As this friend was leaving, my neice, her husband and the 3-year old great-neice pulled in the driveway. They had come to the convenience store across the road and were on their way home. They knew that if they didn't stop I would get em, haha!!!! Well "sissy" was out the window and in my arms before I knew it. They were ready to leave and she was NOT getting back in. I told them to go on and I would bring her home afterwhile.
We walked all around the yard, picking flowers, (I kept her away from the tomato plants) haha!!!
she was riding a tractor that Ritzy had when he was 5 or 6. she explored the garage etc......
Finally the mosquitos started doing their thing, so we went to see Granny & Papa, (my mom & dad). after leaving their house I finally took her home while she was trying to get me to let her stay at my house. I told her that her house and her anmals and dolls missed her, so she was ready to go home after hearing that. She is sooooooo cute!!!!!!
A friend called this evening asking if I wanted to go with her to Tulsa tomorrow. I said I sure would. We are going to eat out also. Mexican food. I think that is about the best kind of food there is ;-)
I just want the "time" for Ritzy to be home to hurry up and get here....................
I sure miss him..........