SOMETHING ALWAYS TRYING TO STEAL OUR HOPE......

Posted by: cheryl

That's right, my last post was full of hope and anticipation. The next day started out just fine but by the afternoon I noticed the heart trying to have palpatations.  You see, I had caught a cold/or flu around the first of the year and it was beginning to work on the progress of the ablation healing.  These past 10 days have not been the best.  I finally went to the ER on the advice of a neighbor who is also a nurse,  Saturday because the palpatations had stopped but there was a very irregular beat.
They informed me that all this was probably happening because of the viral infection.  You see viral infections and a heart healing from cardiac ablation do no go well together.  
 Just as Ritzy and I were starting out the room I started having horrible palpitations.   Everyone came back in, hooked me up to the machine so they could get a "picture" of it happening in real time.  The ER Dr. called Tulsa where my Dr. happened to be on call.  He suggested I come down there to get a Holter monitor for 24 hours.  Mind you......this is during the ice storm......thankfully the roads were not icy.  Well we did that and I proceeded to wear the monitor til Sunday at 4pm.  I had some episodes while wearing that and hope it tells Dr. Milton what is going on.  I had been in contact with his nurse a couple of times informing her of what was  happening. 
I sure hope it is just this virus messing with things.  I still feel weak, I assume because of being so sick and down for the past10 days.  I had not been able to see the grandsons during that time and that was wearing on me ,The fact I was doing so good and then this setback was wearing on me, and........ my not being able to be there for my daughter when she needs a break.......... ...TIMES LIKE THIS CAN  DO A LOT TO A PERSON'S STATE OF MIND.....I still have a cough, am getting plenty of liquids and rest.  I just want to be ME again!!!!!!
H. O. P. E....it's still there, buried deep sometimes.  I still try to get in touch with it every day.  Going outside and sitting in my swing helps the most.......and seeing sunshine.  Have not been able to do either since that weekend storm.  I need sun and fresh air!!!
Ritzy and I took the monitor back yesterday, hoping that would let Dr Milton see it ASAP.  I now await a call from his nurse telling me what is going on.  He said the ablation was a success and I have to believe he knows what he is talking about.  I have heard from many others that he is a very good Dr. and knows his business.  My confidence is not in him tho, it is in God who provided him. 
I am going to take it very easy until this passes.  I told Ritzy that I was sorry about all the housework and cooking I am unable to do right now, but I just need the rest to get back to being Ritzywife and Ni-maw........
Here's to a better week, month, year, life!!
Ritzywife out..............................................

 

A NEW YEAR.......A NEW HOPE.......

Posted by: cheryl

2016 is in the books.......Welcome 2017.  I am always a  little sad to see the holidays come to a close.  I love the excitement of looking forward to the family gatherings, watching the grand kids open Christmas gifts, ringing in the new year with loved ones and so on.....but I am also glad to welcome a new year.
This past Christmas was awesome.  Watching Braedy and Calvin open gifts on Christmas night was so much fun.  Seeing the excitement and anticipation in their eyes was priceless!!
Baby brother Dawson was just as happy as he could be with the bow.....he'll learn....
Every year I get to wondering what to get everyone for gifts, but everything always comes into place and they are all well pleased with what Santa brought them.....Yes, Ritzywife still believes in Santa!!
Christmas was a little different this year because of what is going on with my Dad.  No...we still don't know what exactly what is going on.   He is still "paranoid' about certain things, tells us about events that didn't happen or going to happen.  My poor mom is having a hard time getting any rest because Dad us usually hollering at her wondering where she is..  I told her at this point that Dad is like a child.  Told her to sleep when he sleeps....
I have been making enough supper for us and them and been running it up there or just staying up there to eat.
As for myself....these past few weeks have been good............finally!!!  I feel better with no issues.  I hope to continue the healing.  Saw my DR. and he said everything was going as planned.  That was a big relief.ahhh........
I made soup last night.....Ritzy took some over to our neighbor who owns the convenience store and ate with him while I took some up to mom and dad's and ate with them......In a while I am taking some over to the Keri's so she and the boys and I can eat lunch.  They love Ni-maw's soup!!!
On tonight's menu is Frito chili pie.  Making the chili at Keri's, then bringing enough home to feed my guys and mom and dad and the neighbor.
The baby, Dawson is beginning to crawl..It is so much fun watching him realize he is no longer immobile.  
Rityzwife out.......................................................... 

WHAT IS HAPPENING.........WHERE'S MY DAD?!?

Posted by: cheryl

That is the question my family is asking right now.  We are all scratching our heads, trying to come up with the answers that tests and Dr.'s can't seem to give.
My 79 year old dad, who has been all his life sharp as a tack and one of the smartest men I have known is suddenly, and i mean within the past 3-4 weeks, and especially the past 3-4 days.....  is not making any sense at all when he talks.  He believes what he is saying to be the gospel truth when we all know it is just something fabricated in his mind.
And I mean wild stuff.  For example he tells about these little black specks invading his body and he chases them under his skin, the black specks are evil.........about people turning into other people or children............when riding in a car he starts shouting out what every billboard or street sign says. Yesterday we were so concerned that we took him to the Tulsa St. John er.  Well after  some tests they sent him home.....they don't know how dad was..........they just think he is an old man going senile.  Now he does have a referral in to see a neurologist, but that is a hurry up and wait situation....
On the way home it was horrible...as soon as he got into the front seat of my sister's SUV, he immediately started trying to get the window down.  my sister locked it......but he kept prying at the button trying to get the window down because as he said---I have to do this to save you all from the devil.  If I let this down God can get in here and I can get the devil.  He would NOT let up.  He kept saying--let me do this......He was buckled in, but he was adamant about getting that window down.  He also kept hitting the lock/unlock button all the way home thinking that would get the window to come down.  I was afraid he would try to open the door but I think he just couldn't see the handle to try.  Earlier in the day he had picked the control button out of his flip phone.  He said  was after that little speck.  He also picked a hole in a christmas card trying to get at that speck.  Those were the main reasons for taking him to the er.
He suddenly could not operate the remote to the tv, or his phone.
When I was growing up-----This is the man in the neighborhood that everyone and I mean everyone called when they needed something fixed.  He and his brother started their own heat and air business many years ago.  THIS PERSON I AM SEEING NOW IS NOT MY DAD!!!
Mom texted me, my 2 sisters and brother to come up there a couple nights ago, she said Dad wanted to talk to us.  Well in between all the crazy talk, the gist of what he was trying to say was----don't wait til the end to tell people you love them, or make things right.  In front of us and our spouses he apologized to my mom about how he could have been a better husband.  He told all of us he loved us.....Now.....my Dad's love is something I NEVER doubted when I was growing up.  He was a good provider for his family, we did things together.  He just never said "I love you" a whole lot, because he was from the generation that thought that wasn't the manly thing to do but, I have always told my parents I love them, and they have always returned the sentiment.
It would be awesome to know what we are up against, but we don't. As I was praying for that this morning, I was reminded that if we knew what we were fighting, where would the trust in God be?  God has promised that He will take care of us.  There has never been a promise that we would be delivered from what ever ails us but that He would always be there to get us through whatever comes our way.  We are trusting Him is this too.  That does not make it any easier to see my Dad having to go thru this.  It is just as hard on Mom too.  As a teenager on up to my adult years I have always prayed that God would bless my parents, let them enjoy their retirement, and be happy in their later years because of all the sacrifice I saw growing up.  Our family has been blessed and will continue to be blessed even when it doesn't look like it from the outside.  We serve an awesome God!
But it is still sad to see your parent go thru something like this.
You know....it never entered my mind that my dad would lose his :-(

Ritzywife out...........................................................

More Post Ablation......

Posted by: cheryl

The past couple of weeks have been interesting.  Most days I have felt wonderful, which may have attributed to me overdoing it and causing some not so good days.  Last week my heart was beating regular but fast, but it got back into rhythm after a couple hours.  I have had palpitations also, but those subside after a few minutes to a few hours.  Thanksgiving morning I was feeling so good that I got up and baked 2 pumpkin pies, made chex mix, homemade mashed sweet potatoes and a green bean casserole.  I was feeling fine until about 5 that evening, when the fast rate began and it finally went away overnight.  The son-in-law had killed a doe earlier that morning  for us to process for jerky and burger, but I was feeling so bad that evening that I was unable to do anything, but............my brother, brother-in-law and sister and sister-in-law stepped up and processed that deer for me.  MUCH APPRECIATED!!    I had been feeling so good that I probably overdid it Thanksgiving morning. Yesterday was my worst day so far. 
Well Friday night I had told the boys they could spend the night because I had felt so good.  Well they did and I guess it wore me out because after taking them home Saturday evening, we returned and I got in bed and on the cpap machine around 9:00pm , but the fast heart rate returned at 10:30.  It stayed that way til 1:00 pm Sunday afternoon.  My longest bout so far.  It was then slower but irregular.  This is a pattern that has gone on since the ablation, it speeds up, slows but irregular, then steady.  I called my Dr.'s nurse that was on call and she reassured me that this was totally normal during this "blanking period" (the first 3months  post-ablation).  I am gonna watch it from now on!!!!
I have my tree up, gifts wrapped and home decorated.  I put up the tree and wrapped the gifts so the boys could enjoy them.  Well, when they saw the gifts all I heard was "Can we open them?" hahaha...
NOPE!!  Told them they have to wait til Christmas.   Tried to explain to them that this was the fun time of anticipation of the Christmas season.
I also had ordered 2 postcards from "Santa".  Well while I was video calling them last night, their mom had got the mail and showed them their postcards and read to each of them what "Santa" had written.  The look on their faces was well worth the small amount it cost to send those cards!!!
Our baby grandson Dawson is scheduled to have surgery on December 1 to open up a ureter tube.  He has "caught" the cold that his brothers had earlier.  The daughter is at the Dr's office with him now to see if he can get any relief.  I hope this does not interfere with his scheduled surgery.  He is also cutting teeth.  Poor little guy.  But he is being a trooper through all of this.  
The sun is shining today so it is gonna be a great day..........Ritzywife out.............................


Blessed.......

Posted by: cheryl

Last evening was so nice, I just had to start a fire in the pit.  I find it so relaxing to sit in the quiet of the evening while the sun is setting and listen to a crackling fire.  I was sitting outside waiting on the son and Ritzy to get home for the evening.  Well, Ritzy called and he was running behind, but in his call he told me he was really blessed today.  He wasn't going to tell how me til he got home.....just wanted me to sit there and ponder what he said.  I had no way of knowing what he meant, so I just waited on him.  I already had supper cooked  and waiting on the stove.
Ritzy arrived home, he walked up to me and asked if I knew anything about "this".  Well "this" turned out to be a brand new $650.00 chainsaw that he was trying to save up for.  Bigger than the one he has now.  It seems that someone went to the place where Ritzy does his chain saw business and paid for him a new saw.  All he had to do was go pick it up!!!!  THAT IS AMAZING AND.......................  we serve an AWESOME GOD!!!
What I need to point out is back in the spring/summer someone stole one of Ritzy's best saws.  We just left it to God, and He replaced it with a bigger and better one!!  Praise God!!!
With that....Ritzywife is out...............................

POST ABLATION........

Posted by: cheryl

On November 3rd, I had my cardiac ablation procedure at St. Johns, Tulsa.  I arrived at the cath lab at 5:45 am.  At 6:00 am I was called back to start prepping for the procedure.  By 7:00 I was taken into the actual room where the procedure would take place for more prepping.  By 8:00 am the Dr had started.  I was "out' before he came in...................the next time I saw a clock  it was 12:00 noon and I was back in the room where I had started.  It had taken 4 hours.  I was taken back to recovery room where I had to wait 4 hours before they could remove sheaths from my legs.  That meant no movement from waist down while waiting.  After the sheaths were removed at 4 pm, they had to apply pressure on my legs for 30 minutes.  after this they took me to my hospital room.  I had to lay still with no movement from waist down til 9:00 that evening.  I think this was the hardest part of the whole procedure----laying still from noon til 9 that evening.  WOW!!   Poor Ritzy had experienced a long day of waiting and more waiting.   My Dr. said the procedure was successful.  I have had a few palpatations here and there, but that is to be expected after this procedure.  It usually takes up to 3 months to completely heal from something like this.  I feel really good.
I had to spend 2 nights in the hospital just to be monitored.  I was released at noon on Saturday, November 5th.  I just want to say that my care was excellent from the time I showed up early Thursday morning til I was wheeled out to my truck on Saturday!  They took great care of me and tried their best to see that my needs were met.
So, for this week I just have to take it easy, not lift anything over 5 lbs. or do any strenuous work.  I can't drive til Thursday, November 10th.  For someone who is used to coming and going as she pleases, this is not easy......
  Now on to those grandkids.............they keep asking when I am  gonna be better so they can come spend the night at Ni-maw's & P-pa's.  That's the first thing they ask me when I talk to them.  I just have to wait until I can handle two little rowdy boys.  I tell them Ni-maw is getting better every day and it will be soon when they can come stay with us overnight.  I miss them too!!!
Last week,  I had gone to Keri's and we had picked up the boys from school.  Somehow the conversation turned toward Calvin wanting to operate a crane with a big magnet on it.  We told the boys that those are used at "junk yards".  Then we had to explain that junk yards are where we put things that aren't any good anymore, or things we just don't want, or things that just don't work.  So Keri tells the boys that she will have to take them to a junk yard (meaning - so they can see one)....and from the back of the car, Braedy - with a very concerned voice says:  "Mom, don't junk us!"  At that point, Keri and I both lost it.  She and I  were laughing so hard there were tears.  Well, mama explained to her boys that she would never do that to them and that is not what she meant!!
They are so funny but yet so smart!!  They are loving Pre-K.  Braedy told his mom the other day that his teacher Ms. Pittman knows everything.  That is the attitude to have if you are going to learn anything anywhere.  He has confidence in his teacher.....
Later...............Ritzywife out...............................

Aww "Woodchips"....................

Posted by: cheryl

Well...........same song, different verse.....I had to spend another week in the hospital trying to get this afib condition under control.  On the 6th day  (October 2) I was to be cardioverted early in the morning....we get down to the lab where the cardioversions take place, they start hooking me up to monitors and the  nurse looks at me and says...Well, you are not in afib..there's nothing for us to do.
what a relief...found out my heart had converted back to normal sinus rhythm during the night.  So I was sent home...... but not without making preparations for a catheter ablation to be done on November 3rd.    I have to go sometime this week and have bloodwork done. Three days before this procedure  I take my last Xarelto.(bloodthinner) Two days before i have to give myself injections for a bloodthinner twice a day.....the day before i have to report to the lab and have a TEE (transesophogeal echocardiogram) and a CT Scan to evaluate the heart's anatomy to see where the ablation needs to take place.  Kinda scary, but if this is what is needed then I pray God guides the Dr's hands and mind as to what to do to take care of this.  After procedure,  I get to spend 4 to 6 hours laying completely still...hopefully i am out of it enough that i don't get fidgety.....After spending 2 nights in hospital, I get to come home. 
Now on to the title of this post.....A couple weeks ago the boy's mom had given them their bath before they were about to leave our house.  They were putting on their pj's and Braedy said something...I asked him to repeat it and out came "woodchips".  I asked him what that meant and he said he had thought of a word that he could say when he was upset that would not get him into trouble.  I asked how he came up with that particular word and he said...."well P-Pa cuts wood and I like chips so I put them together"..................we all laughed so hard.  That is genius of a 4 1/2 year old.  We were very impressed........  I have told friends of mine and they love it. 
The boys are loving Pre-K.  They come home singing songs and telling us what they are learning.  It is so fun and rewarding as we watch them react to their learning experience.
Even Ni-maw is learning from them..............
You are never too old to learn..................Ritzywife out.............................