Today started out well enough I guess. While we were eating lunch at Granny's the phone rang and it was my mom's youngest sister (my aunt) calling to say that another aunt, my mom's brother's wife, was not doing well at all.
Last October she found out she had cancer.  They immediately started treating her.  Only 5 months later and she is gone.....
I told Mom I would go to the hospital with her.  We got there and there were a few people gathered around.  After only 2 1/2 hours of watching her labor to breath .....the breathing stopped....it just stopped...
During this time I observed how different people handle.......death..........Some refuse to accept it, some can't believe it will ever happen to their loved ones, and others know it is just a part of life.
As for myself, it's hard to explain.  I usually don't show much emotion at the time, but later grieve in my own way.  I have always been this way and always thought there was something wrong with me.  I don't believe that anymore, though.  What I beleive is that each person knows how they can best deal with the situation and they act accordingly.
It was hard watching my cousin (her daughter) and uncle (her husband) watch their mother and wife slip away.  Although she is not here physically, she will always be here in our hearts.  She is in a place now where there is no more pain or sadness.  she is home.........
I will always remember how the room lit up when she walked in.  She was always happy and showed it.  She always kidded my uncle and gave him a hard time in fun.  You could not help but smile and be happy with her around.  She could always find something to laugh about.  Somehow, I think the way  a person survives this life without losing their mind is finding something to laugh about, even if it is yourself.  God gave us laughter for a reason.........and he gave us tears for a reason.......to grieve.
We will all miss her and grieve for her, but the best thing we can all do for our families and loved ones is make sure we are ready to go when the time comes.
After watching others tell her good-bye, Ritzywife walked over and gave her a kiss on the hand, told her I loved her, and thanked God for the pleasure of being her neice.
With that, Ritzywife is out.......................