Those precious grandsons were born last night.  I am one happy woman!!!!!  They are so beautiful!!!!

                                                                            Braedy - 5 lbs.
They were a little early, but are doing very good.  The daughter is doing great.  The boys have to have a little help with air and have not actually eaten yet but that is just because of their age - 34 weeks 3 days.  Keri did a wonderful job and tried her best but these little guys were not waiting.    They looked a lot better today.  The daughter is doing wonderful.  I am so proud of her.  She and her hubby now have their own little family to start all sorts of memories.  This grandma is going to be busy doing a LOT of spoiling and loving on these two little boys.  I can hardly wait to hold them.  That new rocking chair is just sitting there in Ritzywife's living room waiting on them. 
All the excitement last evening sure made for a long night.  I am getting pretty tired and am planning on going back down to Tulsa in the morning with my mom, so I had better get some rest.  I'll keep ya posted.  Ritzywife out.....................

Here is is 3 weeks later and I am still having to deal with the anxiety.  I have seen my Dr and he seems to think it was the tremendous stress I was under on or Wisconsin trip.  I have started back on my Lexapro.  I wish it would hurry and kick in.  Have been taking it for 6 days now.  I have had a couple of good days where I felt fine, but the rest of the time it has been rough.  I was able to go with the daughter yesterday to see the babies.  They are beautiful, even on the ultrasound.  She and the babies are doing good.  She found out yesterday that the "feelings" she has been experiencing are Braxton-Hicks contractions.  Her technician pointed out that little fact to her.  I told her that her body is just practicing for the delivery. 
It's really hard to focus on everyday life when a person is going thru this kind of problem.....I spent the whole day outside because I felt trapped and alone in my own home.  Our minds can play tricks on us.  I still think it could be hormonal because of my age.  The Dr wants me back in 2 weeks for a fasting blood test. 
A friend called today and invited me to run around with her tomorrow.  I jumped at the invite......I am looking forward to it.  Was talking to Ritzy tonight and told him how good it felt to have something scheduled to do right now.  I am going with him on Friday to cut wood.  I don't care were I  go, it beats staying home alone at this time. 
One of these days soon I will be back to my "old" self.  And yes I said old..........
And..............Ritzywife is out!!

That's about the only way I know to describe what has been going on in Ritzywife's life the past couple weeks.  We made the trip to Wisconsin.  Ritzy and I decided the best thing to do was for all of us to drive back together.  We did drive all the way back (830 miles) in one day.  The day (Wednesday)  after we got back Ritzy and I had business to take care of and I was fine.  Wednesday nite we went to church.  I was taking my bath that nite when all of a sudden I felt like I was gonna pass out and started feeling panicky.  I have had panic attacks before and that is what this felt like.  I also am at the age where things are starting to change and could not tell if this was a "hot flash" or not.  After that happened I just felt anxious and could not get calmed down.   I have been dealing with this for the last 10 or so days.  I must say the past couple of days I have felt like myself, which is a very welcome feeling. 
To anyone who has ever suffered a panic attack, I don't have to describe anything further.  To anyone who has never gone thru this, I don't know if you could ever understand no matter how much I talked about it.
I suppose that the rushed trip to and from Wisconsin had something to do with it.  I was nervous about the whole trip because the kids were in a separate vehicle.  I know that produced a LOT of stress for me.  That has to come out somehow.  I had been off and on with the anxiety until a couple days ago when, like I said before I finally started feeling "normal".....I have cut out caffeine and  most sugar to see if I feel better.  Can't deal with the feeling the caffeine gives me now.

We had our Sweetheart Dinner at a Steakhouse in Tulsa last nite.  There were 20 adults present and everyone said they had a good time and the food was good.   I didn't know if I was going to be able to pull that off, considering the way I was feeling last week, but we did it. 

This coming week should be  less stressful.  I have been invited to a friend's house to come work on their woodworking machines.  I am going to take them up on the offer.  I love working with wood.

I am also getting very excited for those soon to be born grandbabies.  I think their parents have gotten things ready at home ;-)

That's about all I can come up with right now...Ritzywife out!